Miscarried My Third Child.

 So some time has passed and my little boys are starting to get pretty big. Well I started back on the pill cause I just didn't want any more children actually we been talking about me getting sterilized now cause we really don't want anymore, with the 2 that are a handful and then our careers. Well I went to the doctor to talk to them about it and they have to check first well I been on the pill I guess a few weeks but somehow I still got pregnant again. They told me it was pretty early on like a week maybe into my pregnancy. After a few days of getting that news and being depressed on what to do next. I mean all this time I'm taking out I will surely lose my job soon as well as we can't afford another child at the moment. Well after a few days I woke up cramping and in a puddle of blood. Trevor rushed me to the hospital and I miscarried the little one. I have been depressed by it cause it was still our child and I think once I can get past the sadness I will be grateful in the end that my body couldn't handle another pregnancy. They told me we need to be extra careful cause I have to now wait 4 weeks before my body is healed enough to get the sterilization that we decided was for the best. Anyways that's been the last few weeks for me but I think I might go wedding dress shopping with my friend this weekend it might help me get this off my mind plus we are getting married soon anyways.